I make a bad habit of committing to a movie or a book or a game, and then never getting round to actually engage with the piece. I have a list of classic films that I must watch to understand cinema, and shelves of books promising delightful stories or fascinating information if I bothered to open them up. Yes, it does weigh heavily on me.
I have a few excuses to soften the blow. ADHD or mental health issues. Working in the food service industry. Higher education. Indulging countless hobbies, unable to stick to one like a cheating lover. ‘Balance’ and I struggle to get along no matter how much I wish it so. However, I also feel compelled to blame a severe lack of time as the biggest hurdle in my way.
So, it was an interesting scenario I found myself in, in the middle of 2022.
I have time.
And energy!
Turns out, waking up at 4:30 every morning, Monday to Friday, tends to ruin me. In a way that simplified my life to a monotonous cycle of work then sleep then repeat. Occasionally slipping in some fanfiction to make the days feel worth living. Pathetic, I would call myself. And I hold nothing but respect but those who are able to build full-time careers with work schedules that better suit vampires.
It just clearly wasn’t for me.
So, what was? Hopefully, this ecommerce store I decided to grow. It took a number of months to design and order items; string together a functional website; spend money like I was wealthy (ha!); and maintain a level of confidence required to sell one’s own art to the world.
During this time, I finally – FINALLY! – approached one of my lists.
A list of video games I needed to play after over a year of sobriety. My Nintendo Switch Lite had even gathered dust, it had sat on my bedside table looking lonesome like Jesse in Toy Story 2. The hesitant joy it must have felt when I picked it up again. Would she actually play something for longer than 5 minutes? Would she return tomorrow? Is there still hope?
Much to my relief, I did! It sounds odd to celebrate pouring a huge number of hours into various games. I’m sure it sounds like a horrifying situation for parents worrying over their kids’ and their lack of outdoor air. More power to them. However, playing these games symbolised a return of energy for me. To do more than sleep my life away. It exhibited an ability to stick to a project and reach to its completion.
Every time I watch a game’s credits roll, I felt a little more certain that this online store plan could work.
Therefore, the following blog posts will be documenting the video games I finally sat down to play.
Emphasis on the I – as in me – and my overall experiences. In no way am I presenting myself as an unbiased reviewer. The wide world of the internet offers plenty of reviews for one to explore if they’re in search for that sort of thing. As for this blog? There is potentially, in fact most likely, no audience for some random individual sharing her thoughts on the games she got on sale and enjoyed.
But here I am, sharing them anyway. None of the games are fresh. Much of the hype or discussions have come and gone. The party was over and here I was, rushing in carrying a basket of presents.
Better late than never I suppose.
